So, I had my appointment yesterday and I’m extremley frustrated with my doctor; if I weren’t 39 weeks on Saturday, I’d definitely be getting a new one. So, the trip I made to the hospital at 37 weeks due to lack of fetal movement I was told I was dilating and I was 50% - at an appointment with my doctor a week later, he tells me I’m dilating but I’m only 25%; confused, I told him what the hospital said and he response was “50%? Hmm”. That was it. At the hospital for labor contractions last Saturday I was told I’m just shy of a 2 and I’m 85%, and to come back when I’m a 4 or my water breaks - just yesterday I’m told by my doctor I’m only a 35%. Are you absolutely kidding me? Ok that’s a 50% difference, there is absolutely no way one of the two can be that far off unless of course I was a martian and had two cervixs’. At the hospital I was also told she’s quite small and I have a level of amniotic fluid higher than most to prove it, my doctor disagreed and said he estimated her to be about 7lbs - yesterday, he tells me she’s probably 5lbs even if that and needs to incubate longer. Ok, make up your mind!

Anyway, I found out that even though he can feel her head right at my cervix with just his fingertip being there - she hasn’t dropped far enough to expect her here before my due date; my cervix is still pushed all the way back which is why I’ve been prevented from active labor ever lasting. Lame. We haven’t discussed being induced yet - the hospital however can’t induce a patient into labor unless there is a risk to the mother or the baby or they are at the very least 39 weeks.

I’m in pain, exhausted, and an emotional wreck with these hormones. I’m ready to reach up and pull her out myself.